September 21, 2017
Thoreau explains in Walden the key to living a happy life is to “Simplify. Simplify. Simplify.” Thoreau wants us to focus on ridding ourselves of unnecessary responsibilities, freeing up our time to do what we deem the most important. Many of Thoreau’s critics make fun of him for using the word “Simplify” three times because he doesn’t stick to his own doctrine to remove unnecessary details. I think he says it 3 times because only saying it once doesn’t stress the importance of the word.
The post-op bariatric surgery patient’s life is “Change. Change. Change.” Using Change only once, or even 3 times, can never convey the amount of change I have gone through. EVERYTHING is different: from how I interact with coworkers, friends, family, my husband and myself to how I can’t take a shower without feeling changes in my body shape when I use the soap.
When I started this blog, I wanted to tell my story in chronological order. I remained so steadfast in this desire; I’ve missed months of writing because I had not anticipated how much change would affect my life.
Today, September 21, 2017, I reached my goal of a 35 BMI, and I am 10 months, 4 days post-op.
Last week, my husband and I went on the first trip where I was able to see the world in a way I could not have before surgery. An amazing world where I could hike and climb for breathtaking views. On this trip I realized this blog needs to change its linear story. Instead, from now on, I will be jumping back and forth in time to give perspective and understanding of my present life as I experience it, yet I will not shed the chronological aspect to the story. I want to tell my story both past and present concurrently.
In Walden, the idea of simplicity appears in a chapter entitled: Where I Lived and What I Lived For. Sections of the blog which discuss the present will be titled Where I Lived; and What I Lived For to help distinguish present versus past.
I chose Where I Lived, and What I Lived For because when I reached this view:
It hit me: “This is why I had the surgery.” I felt a sense of quiet for the first time in over a year. I began to try to live inside my body and realized why I fought for the surgery and fight everyday to continue on my health journey. This is what I lived for.