I began this blog after my gastric sleeve surgery. This is the place where you expect me to tell you about my starting weight and what weight I am at now. I’m going to avoid numbers and percentages throughout the blog because most bariatric patients are like me and we have looked at numbers, tape measures and scales as our source of self esteem. I’m guilty of looking at someone else’s starting weight and have been grateful because “Well, at least I didn’t get that big.” And in other stories, I feel horrible because my numbers are so much larger than someone else’s. I don’t want my blog to contribute to that vicious cycle. This blog isn’t like the others.

This blog is not just about my struggle with self-esteem or the story from the beginning to the end of 1st year post-op surgery, but also will include things I learned along the way that may help you through your own weight journey. There are plenty of other blogs which give recipes and suggestions about which protein shake is best.

Instead, I look down at my bright red scars that still haven’t become a permanent part of me. I listen to my doctors, my therapist, my parents and my husband  tell me about the trauma my body and mind have experienced from major surgery. I’m told something along the lines of this quote: “From every wound there is a scar and every scar tells a story. A story that says, I survived“…Father Craig Scott. My weight loss journey includes scars and trauma and survival.

My overall goal of this blog is: “When you can tell your Story and it doesn’t make you cry, you know you have healed.”  I want to heal.

My Bariatric Year is my weight loss journey both before gastric sleeve surgery and after. Maya Angelou said, “There is no greater agony than bearing an untold story inside you.” I have tried to hide from my story, but I can’t bear that agony any longer.
My story has many aspects that are positive and negative and everything in between. Many people have written stories of their bariatric surgery journeys, and I have felt disillusioned by the messages from this genre, as most are filed under the distinction of “self help.” I feel that these writers are afraid to be honest, truly honest, about the journey’s unexpected twists and turns into darkness because of the stigma that still remains around bariatric surgery: “It’s the easy way out.” If the stories stay positive, then no one will ever know about the darkness and the stigma won’t exist. But, I think showing the darkness, the bravery, the strength, the self love and loathing, is the only way people will finally overcome that stigma.“Storytelling is the essential human activity. The harder the situation, the more essential it is.” Tim O’Brien